Maudlin. Rocks A-Head.

Wow, the year's winding down, the old is on its way out. The new... well, lets say the new is waiting at the doorway, and it's up to me to usher it in.

Such a polite person, this New.

Anyways. I'm taking a breather. Heck! It may even be a permanent air-pocket in the stuffy area that is my life. The old year has seen a lot of students going on break. The new year may not see them again, depending on time. Theirs and mine. Also on whether I've been doing a satisfactory job so far.

Faugh. What a thing to worry my fat head over. It'll happen when it happens. At least SpousieDude is now earning enough that we're comfortable even if I never worked another day in my life. NOT that I plan on leeching. Nah, what do you take me for? I'm lazy! Not useless!!! :p

Anyway, musically, 2005 has been...a revelation. But I'm not that bright, so I'm easily impressed :) I've learned that there's still a LONG way for me to go. So many gaps in my education. And yes, I realize I'm the one who put those gaps there.

Also, I'm very much aware now just how common I am. In the sea of musicians, I am but a minnow. Are minnows salt water fish? Cuz if they're not, then I am an ikan bilis. What's that in Common again? ;)

I do believe I'm rambling.

Here's a thought. I'm getting older. And I'm feeling the changes that ageing brings. And I'm not talking about the physical problems, although those are starting to make themselves felt. The hours I keep. My energy levels. My enthusiasm for anything new.

I'm a stodgy old fart, and that fact is hitting me hard!!!

I guess having too much time to ponder my life is making me maudlin. I mean, I'm 28. And next year I'll be 29. And then I'll be 30. And I'm still living with my parents (although it's great, cuz SpousieDude isn't around). My kid's going to Primary School once the school year re-opens. I hardly see my husband, and now I hardly hear from him as well.

And of course, the rainy season is here. I love it. Honest. But it's wet, and just a little dreary.

I'm looking forward to Christmas. I'm looking forward to SD coming home. I'm looking forward to singing in Singapore with the WP. I'm looking forward to the performance at KLPAC with the Phil. I'm looking forward (but not all that much, cuz I hate my piano playing skills) to the gigs with WM.

And I'm looking forward to the brief lull the office is going to have, before we swing full-time into the Cammies.

I'm going to bed. God knows, I'm so darned tired.